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I come from the spirit of two young hearts, new to the concept of life

What all that meant

What it all could mean

 

There is no place strange to a soul conceived on the shore

In her first car

Her first time

Their last moment of strange

 

Unfamiliar lands inviting them to themselves

Together

For then

Forever

The fire that bore me

From the air

 

Signs

Pointing in so many directions

They chose Love

Where everywhere is home

 

For then

Forever

I come from their hearts

The flame they kindled with their hopes

 

Dreams of a life

That looked nothing like me

Here I stand in the land that their hearts designed

Hands outstretched to catch the rays of light they left behind

 

Home is where the heart is

I was conceived on the shores of the Clearwater Beach

Then carried up the coast to be delivered in Philly

Where I took my first breath and first steps

 

I found myself on the countryside of West Atco

Sitting in fields of dandelions, looking for ghosts

The wind at my back and under my feet

Plucking flowers and chasing tumbleweeds

 

My first best friend was a spider

With no name

Most folks call them Daddy Long Legs

Learned that long johns were called thermals

In the city, more troubles

Wondered why Momma wanted to move in the first place

 

Learned what it was like to not feel at home

For the first time

In the city where I was born

Found my soul mates in the same space

 

I could say I was partly raised

Partly crave the countryside some days

Most days feel like I’m getting by on a high tide

Praying the waves don’t crash too soon

 

Too cool

In the city

Everybody too cool

Quite frankly

 

WIth them fast cars and them stereos

I used to sleep like a baby in the stillness of the night

Now silence causes me plight

It’s heavy and don’t feel right

 

In the space where there ain’t nothing but lights

And sounds

When rest is needed

But stirring is abundant

 

There still ain’t enough to go around

For anyone

Ain’t no love

But I live in the heart

 

In the chamber, ready to discharge

With the wind beneath my wings

Soaked with soot and spit

Carrying my heart in a vice grip

 

Too cool in the city

So I set sights on the shore

My heart and spirit feel full

The sands dance at the sight of my feet

 

Bury my heart at home

In the sea

Where there is no stranger

Just friends who have yet to meet

 

Unfamiliar lands inviting them to themselves

Together

For then

Forever

The fire that bore me

From the air

 

That carries me, pushes me to the edge

A fairy on a ferry

Headed for the horizon

Drink the tide she ride in

 

On my feet

At the bottom of the sea

That bore the spirit that bore me

Home is nowhere and everywhere in between

To a soul like me

 

Home is sitting in fields of dandelions, looking for ghosts

The wind at my back and under my feet

Plucking flowers and chasing tumbleweeds

 

Walking through Beirut on a summer day

Cars whipping by with catcallers twice my age

Learning to be too cool

Just to make it through the haze

 

Smoke breeds more smoke

Too much air to tame the flame

Ignited and displaced

Internalized rage

 

Sitting in the heart of the city

Waiting in the chamber

Don’t want no smoke

Feeling the fire

 

What’s home with no mother?

What’s home with no father?

Unfamiliar lands inviting me to call them home

No place will do

 

But the shores that they came to

There’s no place like home

There’s no place like home

There’s no place like home

 

Everywhere and nowhere and all in between

 

Affirmation.oxygen

Today,

I honor the breath in my body

Invite in

More OXYGEN

I honor my mind, body and spirit

As

A unit

And the

individual

parts

Within it.

Her

She deserves the world,

better yet,

Earth.

 

Affirmation.oneday

I will not be consumed by

my disappointments

I will reinvent myself

As many times

As I see fit

One Day

At a Time

Affirmation.good

Thoughts travel faster than

the speed of light

I send what sits in my heart

Out

To guide the steps ahead.

True Love

By design.

Think good thoughts 

Think good thoughts

Think good thoughts

Good Thoughts

 

Affirmation .be

When I allow myself to be free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

can live.

When I am free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

can live.

When I am free,

my dreams, and the best of all,

for all,

live.

And it is in this

Moment

that I

remember

who I am

whom I love

and to truly

Be.

______ now, I am

I’m not dead 

Fear is paralyzing; the ultimate distraction
That no one has ever, ever been able to afford.
In the arena of my mind, I set fire to the stage and watch Love and

Fear duke it out to be the last one standing on the ashes.

Focus is my Victory.
I can truly hear myself
(((SCREAM)))
Trampling between pride and hunger, I see the pattern

I’m.mortal.
“i-m-m-o-r-t-a-l”
Soul is who aches when I cry and who rejoices at the tears.
The stream is the aftermath.
What’s screaming but Fear shrinking in sight of Heart?
You?
A single vessel, for the moment, her 1000th time saving the world, today.
Sound waves bare witness to your Exodus, forever echoed throughout the Ether.
I’ve given up to be the ashes, the sand in the arena of Love.
Because
I’m.mortal

immortal
Carried away in the wind of my thoughts, I fall, hard, to the floor
Here. Again.
Buried a mile under the sea of ashes with Fear grabbing for my ankles.
Just one pinch
Focus is my Victory,

I can truly hear myself
Bouncing between Hunger and Heart
I see the pattern
Silence is my solace
“I-a-m-i-m-m-o-r-t-a-l”

“Unknown”, now, “I am”

I am immortal 

…Much is Tested

The scales you polish so much

Have failed you

Consumed by the beauty of the balance

Shifting your weight to keep up

With the glimmer

Dare to scuff

The scale

Wasn’t made to carry you

Shape your soles to bear your heart.

Feet stumble in passion.

She who carries Heart walks with Grace.

You are Not What Was Done

I stir

On occasion

Most times

It’s hard to know until I’m already spinning

Kicking and screaming

No! We worked so hard!

My spirit, deaf, dumb, blind

With rage, pain, hunger

Don’t call it Anger

Tearing up the corners of the Earth searching for another angle.

Call it Faithful

What’s faith in the face of hate?

Or Love when love for that hate can’t be denied?

When famine fed by fear finds that second wind

And you’re the tide

When Love’s locked away in perception and you can only see her through the caged hearts of man

Where your heart flutters at the sound of Love’s name but even that is painful

You remember the last time Love was in your lap.

That shit hurts

What did you trade Love for?

Would you remember it on the street?

Would it run to catch you when you fell?

Or was it what had you falling in the first place?

 

 

 

Praise

What would the world be without glory? The same thing it would be without pain.

Everything is relative.

However you want to slice it, we were all created to be here in the same place at the same time.

We must never allow ourselves to be guided or stopped by what anyone else is doing. We must never allow ourselves to be guided or stopped by what anyone else is doing. We must never allow ourselves to think we can only go so far because others are already there.

I didn’t choose to be here now

I never knew there was a choice

My majesty was borne out of the need for Love to thrive unconditionally.

So was yours

Rejoice in that.

Be grateful you are one of Love’s children,

one in a million,

among the many,

ones in millions,

living for Love.

And she goes hard for her kids.

Praise the hard times

Praise the easy ones

Plan for the worst

Strive for the best

Praise the hard times

Praise the easy ones

Love goes hard

For all her kids

When it’s hard

When it’s easy

Release Your Greatness, Thank You.

Seven years ago, on October 6, 2008, I came home to discover my mother laying lifeless in her bed. It’s odd that I feel it makes sense that it happened in October. It’s always been a telling month for me and for that, it is holy.

The month of revelation.

And a supreme incentive for reflection…

Even the air is stirring and settling the elements of life, like leaves dancing about the pavement.

My mind is stirring as I watch the leaves rise and fall in the waves of wind. 

I’m here. 

I embrace that I am here because You are here. 

I am here because she is here.

I am here because she was here.

Thank tou for all that you have brought me and protected me from.

I’m just getting to understand you as I understand myself. 

The greatest gift you have given me is the presence of mind and spirit to seek you in the first place.

The gift of knowing.

Always in sync with your mind, even when it wanders. 

I hope to make you proud and content in knowing I came after you.

I hold you in my heart, even when it hurts. 

Thank you for living.

Thank you for fighting to live.

And Love

And loving hard and real easy 

Thank you for passin’ off the little bits of love you had left to my mama’s, mama’s, mama’s, mama and me. 

We release our greatness when we can’t deny the ones who gave us that greatness.